Changes in the Architecture

How would you feel when you find yourself stuck in between your dreams/aspirations and your lack of commitment? You want to read but fall asleep on opening a book. You want to write but run short of words. You try to run but fail to gather the energy to catch up. You want to eat but are already full. You want skydiving but you are acrophobic. Everyone around you seems to be Mr. Fix-it but you aren't able to find the leak. You try new routes but end up lost every time. Troubled?

"Why me?", "Why now?", "Why always?", is what you always ask. "I have to change", is what you always think. "When and how I'd achieve my dreams", is what you always wonder. You seek shelter in someone. You want to confide in someone who would just listen to you and not suggest anything. But at the same time you want the same person to find you the right direction. What you are unable to see is that the same person is just another game in the labyrinth, who seeks refuge in you. But when you find the reality you feel happy to find another lost soul and act Mr. Fix-it yourself. And leading someone else's way you find yours. You started raising a house but finally built a palace.

But in the end, where was the dream you saw a couple of moments or days or years ago? You have everything one would want, but not the ones you wanted. Do you still remember what you wanted? Or is it so that your historical desire was not actually a desire? Is what you want the one you really want? Got confused? So am I.

So I started this blog. To find the answers. I dont know its outcomes or results. I dont know whether I'd find the answers but I certainly know this fact- that I'm enjoying it :)